“Something inside you emerges… an innate indwelling peace, stillness, aliveness. It is t
he unconditioned, who you are in your essence. It is what you had been looking for in the love object. It is yourSELF. “
~ Eckhart Tolle
Throughout this journey of the last eight months; I have learnt more in this year than I have in my whole life.
2016 has been a year of endings and new beginnings. In my darkest times, I have made the most growth and change.
I have moved house this year, spent most of the year pregnant, going through divorce and have a new relationship with myself and the father of my baby.
This is a lot of change and experiences for one person in less than one year.
Many times, I have felt close to breakdown and the tears have flowed so much that I could have filled a full-size swimming pool by now.
However, I have made the best friends and grown the strongest support network I could have ever wished for.
I have learnt so much about myself, and accepted the dark and light within me. This took a lot of work using energy techniques and keeping track of the full moons and new moons and super moons so I could do letting go and manifestations to release the old and bring in the new for the greater good of all.
While I write this, it is now October 18th and I am 37 weeks pregnant.
I have been a solo mother for the last 7 months and have developed one hell of a bond with my five-year-old daughter. Fought many battles with my ex-husband and have been juggling the finances within an inch of their life!
It has been a rollercoaster of emotions and growth.
On 16th October, the father of my baby came to see me. After many meet ups through scans and midwife appointments where it seemed we were just friends and keeping communications open for the baby. We finally met up on Sunday 16 October on the weekend of the super moon in Aries. This just so happens to be his star sign. Which is quite amazing.
The same day my daughter went off with her daddy to her nanny’s birthday get together and this was a turning point to me standing up to him and deciding best route for my daughter and all involved is that she does not see him any longer.
After she left I was in floods of tears and felt hysterical. This was a dark moment. The ones they tell you will be turning points that make you stronger. This was one of those moments.
Soon after this happened my light of my life the father of my baby showed up and took me out for dinner. He held my hand across the table and sincerely apologised for disappearing for 7 months and asked if there would be any way I would accept him back into our lives. He has missed me and wants to make a go of things with me, the baby and my daughter.
It was a very special moment. I felt excited, nervous and cautious but also very positive about this. I realised for months now that he and I may well be twin flames and have a very special purpose on this planet. To bring much love and light to the world to help heal the collective.
We have a very ‘go with the flow and non-conventional relationship’, where we give each other the right amount of space to do our own things. This is essential for our journey together so we can both grow and evolve for our mission.
I told him that I think we needed that 7 month break apart to both release our issues and grow. We have now come back together stronger and more ready for our path together. We have reunited to serve our mission as twin flames and to bring up our little family of two children that are very special twin flame souls too. They need us as parents for their missions too.
It has all become very clear now and all the past hurts are worthwhile because without sacrifice nothing is gained. Pain is a required part of life to help us grow.
Those 7 months have served us well and we are now in a position to really work as a team and support one another to be unstoppable on our very important life purpose.
Love really is the greatest power on this earth, and it can rise above any dark force. The energy that real pure soul love that is unconditional can glow strong and cannot be distinguished.
Our flame is bright and will burn for eternity. LOVE IS TRUE AND PURE… AND SO, IT IS
Lesson: Unconditional Love – fully accepting self – Take back your power
Love is the most powerful energy on the planet, it can heal anything. Real love is unconditional which means loving without expectations or obligations to be or do anything. Loving without expecting another to give that love back or to do anything for you. That is real Love. It is co-creative love it is not codependent love. Depending on others for anything is not real. It is an illusion. We must love ourselves unconditionally. Fully accepting our dark and light sides. If you can fully love everything about yourself. Then Love has Won! If we can love and let go and give as much freedom to another as we give ourselves then we have real unconditional love – the purest form of love there is!
Daily Affirmation
I lovingly take back my power and eliminate all interference.